starting over

I am going to start over today. I thought about erasing my previous post but hell no.  I was just rambling about this and that .  It was early and I was aggravated by what? I am not sure.  I have a good life @ this point .  There has been a lot of trouble along the way.  I am still in the recovering process.  I am still not back at my job full time.  I will probably be part time for many years to come.  I am teaching yoga more than ever.  I am financially stable.  I have a loving husband that puts up with me.  Seriously, I am not sure how he does it.  I guess I add color to his life.  We are polar opposites.  When I met him 13 years ago.  He was young and determined.  He knew what he wanted and how he was going to get it.  He was organized, sincere and honest.  Sometimes brutally honest.  I on the other hand was floating back and forth between Nyc and Mass.  Spending time in San Fran., Chicago and Arizona. I had a lot of loose ends.  Doing heroin.  In a relationship with a girl named Julie.  A beautiful artist.  Working at a Health Food Store and just floating about. Bart and I went out once and that was all it took.  We were then inseparable.  He posessed qualities that I did not and vica vera.  We were ying and yang.Although he was immediately concerned about my relationship with Julie. He was asked to join before we broke it off.  He was also concerned with the idea I was saving money to take off to Arizona that summer.  Instead I convinced him to come to SF with me for awhile and spent some time in Vermont and flutter from here to there.  We eventually settled down in an apt. in Mass.  His family started sending me to plant talks and seminars out at Stockbridge The school for agriculture and I moved my way up the ladder at work and started leaving my wings behind.  Bart and I enjoyed each others company.  He was willing to come anywhere with me,.  We went on alot of trips and he taught me how to mange my finances and become a more responsible human being  hahahahahhahahha!  I have been clean for 13 years.  We built a log home 8 years ago, had a son and made a comfortable, calm life for ourselves.  For the time being there are no big traveling plans on the horizon.  I would like to buy some llamas and become more sustainable.  Have evrything at our disposal.  For now time is about make a calm environment for our son filled with peace, love and understanding.  When he is old enough we hope to bring him on a trip across the United States visiting various National Parks , exploring nature.  As for myself I would like to see the world.  Which I will in due time.  My husband hopes all my dreams come true and he will help make that a reality.  My first destination will be India.  My husband would like to go to Alaska.  We are still night and day.  But it works.  Respect is where it is at.  Communication.  He is my best friend.  I have never met anyone quite like him.  He is the most sincere human being I have ever met.  I am honored to have him in my life.